beginnings and endings: 05/01/2005

Canada doing its best for me.

SOMETIMES I feel out of control to the point that I truly need to gain control of everything that comes to me. However, I have discovered lately to simply be who I am and let things happen as they were meant to. I can't change everything, nor can I be in control of everything. Things will fall into place if I let them and stop trying to make them happen, and if they do not fall into place, it was not meant to be. I NEED to relax in life, and enjoy it. Not get worked up about the small things and just live with less worries. I believe this would help a lot of people be more content with themselves. I have been implementing these few ideas into my life lately and I have found a comfortable zone in my life that I had not previously entered often. I am comfortable with my personality, sense of humor, and overall my "me." I feel more like me then I ever have. Thank goodness.

I hope to fill my days with a joyful demeaner rather than a negative overtone. I wish to seek to serve and help others first, before filling my own desires. I want to be gracious towards others. I want to be kind. I want to be loving. I want to be the kind of MAN that lives a life that causes other to stop and re-examine their own. I want to be a leader, not a follower. I want to stand out from the crowd and be my own. I want to be ME. Enjoy Yourself.

NDK

I do not wish to spend my days searching for that perfect somebody, but to become a perfect somebody for that special some one---Ned Kimmel

Ben and I in Canada holding our prizes... our fish.

MY hair is falling out, my nails are being bitten, my teeth are grinding, my bodily hygiene has degraded, and I'm curled up in a sphere like position in the corner in just my underwear, which of course are now loose-fitting due to the lack of nutrition. I am nervous. I am white as a ghost because I have an Interview today. I wish to obtain a job at the fine establishment that many call Sears. I call it, "joy." Sears is a joyous place, therefore I named it "joy." Who am I kidding... I don't want to work at Sears. It basically all that I've got. I NEED A JOB!! And this is where my helplessness has embedded itself! At the Indiana Mall. I never thought I'd work at the mall, and I still might not! Which is why I am so incredibly nervous. I feel that if I am meant to get the job, I will. If not? I won't get it. Simple as that. But I NEED money. The source of all happiness is at my fingertips, but will I grasp hold of it? Not until I obtain this job. I MUST!

Sometimes there are signs in life that let you know whether or not things go well. For example, if I'm at my interview today and it somehow ends with the interviewer throwing his or her freshly brewed cup of boiling hot coffee in my face, it most likely did not go well. However, if it ends with a shake of the interviewer and my hands, and the words "We'll be calling you in a few days about your schedule and training" are spat out, that's a good sign! I hope to be identifying these signs today so I will know whether or not I could have possibly gotten the job. I truly hope that I can get this job. If you think about little ol' neddy today? Pray for him. Pray for him to be prepared and not nervous. Thankyou! I know all you faithful readers will do this.

On an extremely happy note, my brother is home! Ben has returned home and so has the gladness and joy to my heart! I missed him so much!! So much that he made it into my blog! I even think that today's picture will feature Benny boy! Perhaps a photo of him and I, relaying the good times that we spent to you, the reader. Now that he is home, I am now prepared to have the best summer of my life. With my great hopes and expectations, I plan on going boating and fishing a lot with my brother and friends, perhaps a camping trip thrown in there somewhere. Its a beautiful day outside and I plan on enjoying it! Enjoy Yourself.

NDK

Whenever a sunset or a poem won't cut it, just apologize for once to the girl---Ned Kimmel

My hair is getting long??

I am more than happy now... I am estatic. I am glowing. I am filled with an upbeat energy that I have not felt for years. I plan on running tomorrow morning with vigor. A good two or three miles of jogging and then I'll walk the rest, this shall be my routine for a while. Well, I at least hope that will be. I have an incredible goal of running to Indiana before the summer drifts away like the summer sun setting. I may have to get my old job back at Rosebud Mining, not that I want to. It just might end up being my only option right now. I hope not due to the indwelling hatred that has been dominating my opinions on jobs.

So my hair is getting quite shaggy now. I love it a lot. I plan on letting it grow over the summer and seeing how it looks then. I'll basically cut it in a while is what I'm saying... just not right now. I want to see what it is going to look like long, mainly because I have not had it much longer than it is right now. However, it will get crazy. Yes, you heard me right: Crazy. Enjoy Yourself.

NDK

I once found myself standing in front of a "road closed" sign. I continued driving around the sign and soon later I crashed---Ned Kimmel

TODAY I must find a job, or at least put some applications out there. There is no reason for me not doing this. I must. I must find a potential job and it must be soon. Or else, that is if I do not find a place of employment, I will be broke and my debt will grow exponentially. I will drop out of school and live in a cardboard hut for the remaining days of my miserable life.

I NEED to find a a job. Enjoy Yourself.

NDK

I once found a fork in the road. I took the fork---Ned Kimmel

How about that beautiful water. That is what I expect to see this summer. This was in the Canada region.

THERE is something terribly wrong with this post. It is the fact that I am running out of words to place on my blog. I have used so many that I am losing my originality and the proverbial "spunk" that I once typed with. I feel that I am a super hero and the increasing amount of blog posts I provide, no matter how much I love to do it, is my kryptonite. It is slowly destroying my reputation as an incredibly powerful, yet graceful writer. However, I may have to have my posts demoted to a lower level of day by day summarization. Just explain the high points of each day, and "hi-tail" it out of there.

Basically, yesterday was filled with a not so much fun atmosphere. Covered in already popped bubble wrap if you will; never a fun time when you find out the bubbles have already been popped. I arose at nearly 10:52AM. A beautiful nights rest, only awakened to feel the throbbing pain in my third kneecap (the lump below the kneecap). I mowed the beautful green grass that so elegantly thrusts itself from mother earth way too freaking quickly. Goodness, the grass high. It was almost knee-high. REDUNCULOUS!!! (another one of my created words). However, I was able to finish up the mowing around the four o' clock region of the day and proceed to the shower house. It was a warm and refreshing shower. One that maes your body want to lounge around and watch a movie until the night grows terrifyingly old. And thats what I did. The quarters joined up, retreated to Zachery's peaceful abode, and fell into the couch cushions and soaked in the moving pictures until our brains were wrinkeled and pruny like a hand that has been in the pool water too long. We had fun to say the least.

I enjoy hanging out and doing things. I hope you do as well. I have a new goal. Find something positive about each day. I'll include it here each time I post a blog. Yes.

Positive moment of the day #1: I found one of the most enjoyable things. Spending quality time (minutes, hours, and such) with the best of friends. Enjoy yourself.

NDK

When my friends gather round', I am often surrounded by stupidity---Ned Kimmel

ATTENTION!! ATTENTION!! ATTENTION!! Game two of TJS' baseball season goes down tonight at 6:00PM. This is an invitation to all who love baseball and those who don't. A guarenteed fun time will ensue once you arrive. There is food, recreation, and entertainment(the game). Our team is 1-0, and we hope to continue the streak! Thankyou for your support!!!

Enjoy yourself.

NDK

Baseball is not a sport, its a state of mind---Ned Kimmel

I loved you, and still do.

YET another jobless day passes me by, like a helpless body swept into the endless oceans waves; mangled by the beating power rushing the body into the coral reef below. I feel certainmostly (a new word I have created) lazy and bum-like walking about my house in my pajama styled pants and a shirt that allows my stomach to protrude from the cotton confines. However, I am about to go mow my yard in a very productive manner, I almost have my game face on.

AS many of you know, I lost my cell phone on the trip to Robinson Falls. I created a little picture in Adobe Photoshop in memory of the fallen phone. Due to my lack of responsibilty and my poorly made pockets, my phone fell from its happy place to the ground, somewhere on our journey. I just wanted to announce publicly my sadness, but above all my love for that phone. Thankyou for making so many calls for me. I hope to see you again someday.

Enjoy yourself.

NDK

If you want to walk smart, try using both feet---Ned Kimmel

The bike I must search for over the course of this summer.

ABOVE and beyond everything and anyone, I need a motorcycle. I NEED a motorcycle... it is not so much that I want one, it is fully and completely that I NEED one. I am planning on making a purchase this summer. I plan on doing this so I can reduce the amount of money's that I pay for gas-o-line. This is the sole reason that my hair is growing long and wispy, so that it can wip and blow in the wind up against my beautiful face. And, of course, to pick up girls and take them places and have them fall in love with the man in the leather jacket upon his fine motor bike (me).

LOOK to the above picture for a good look at the bike that I wish to purchase. It is a Yamaha Radian, I am truly looking for this model due to the beautiful looks and price tag. It gets roughly 47 miles to the gallon. I will be keeping my eyes open throughout the summer looking for bikes of this model. I have great hopes in purchasing this summer. Summer is nice... enjoy yourself.

NDK

I bought a motorcycle because people said they were unsafe---Ned Kimmel

This is where you get off.

ALRIGHT, here is the deal. I have decided to do a quite a few things. And luckily drugs is not one of them, although it was somewhere at the middle of the list of things to do, I removed it rather quickly. However, the things have decided to do are quite exciting and eye-lid lifting. I have decided to search for a new job. I want to be able to boost my resume with other jobs, therefore I would be boosting my experiance as a working man for when I look for, what many call, a career. Therefore... I need to create my resume first, and then find the places I want to apply and drop my resume off at the chosen businesses. I have also decided to once again dabble in the music industry. AKA: take saxophone lessons again. I'll have to dial through to my previous teacher and see if she is still available for lessons. Exciting news for not only me, but everyone!

OH the joys of summer and not having anything to do! Oh contrare, I need to find a job soon so I can produce money's for my pockets, yes POCKETS (PLURAL). I have many pockets that I need to fill, AT LEAST two on the front and two on the back. I want enough money that when it is hanging out of said pockets, if it blows away in the wind, I will not turn my head to look for it. THATS ALL I ASK. Gosh.

As for the sax? I only expect to become something equivalent to the local performer Kenny G, by the end of the summer. I hear he is not only the best in Elderton, but also in Indiana. I want to become him in everyway, the long hair (I've already started), the girls (I've completed this, just check out the picture with just one of them), the food (I guess Kenny G weighs over five hundred pounds so I better get crackin'), and of course the G's themselves (moola). If I don't have money, I have nothing. I do not have family, friends, girls, food, long hair etc... You know exactly what I'm talking about... Yet, I once heard that money cannot buy happiness. However, money CAN buy waverunners, and I have yet to see an unhappy person on a waverunner. Its like a law, you have to smile and be happy on one of those. A similar law on the opposite side of the spectrum is a homeless man cannot be happy. I once saw a homeless man begin to skip around and cackle at the beautiful day, and I hit him with a bottle. He broke the law.

Enjoy yourself.

NDK

Whenever I find a girl to be mine, and me to be hers, I think I'll buy her flowers---Ned Kimmel

Its getting hot in "harr" so take off all your clothes!!!

AS shown by the above picture... It is most certainly turning into western PA weather out there. Humidity out the wazoo, and rain every other day. OH the joys of spring/summer. I am extra excited today. The quarters meet again at their favorite dining place: The Mayflower Buffet. This is going to be a very interesting day. Their will most likely be a looming awkwardness throughout the air while we nervously eat our food, due to the time that seperated all of us since our last meeting. However, ladies and gentlemen grab your purses and fanny packs its going to be a good one. Enjoy yourself.

NDK

I told the dog to stop barking if he wanted fed. Weeks later he stopped, I went to feed him and he was dead...Stupid dog---Ned Kimmel

WHERE do I begin? I have thouroughly considered the many routes that I could journey through dragging this wicked blog along with me, and I am still in a state of utter confusion. Perhaps it is that my thoughts are plagued with thoughts with the freedom that comes a long with hot days and cool summer nights spent doing next to nothing but all the while having the time of your life being that you are with your friends. So what do I talk about? I know.

SCHOOL is over. O-V-E-R. You read it right. Its been over for almost week now. It is a stupendous feeling, knowing that there is truly no need to arise from my dungeon like sleep spot (Bed) at 6:00AM. For I feel like a child, not a worry scattering about, only me. Well, thats not completely true, I will address my worries further down in the blog. I have about one week until I begin my slave-driven summer. Ahh, yes, hopefully again working for Rosebud Mining. Therefore I must spend this last week as if it was the last of my life, crazy and to its fullest. I started by going to Robinson Falls, hiking back through the uncharted wild, up and around rocks that would cause Louis and Clark to fall flat on their faces. I am planning on doing something adventurous and fun each day of the week. I know. Risky. It could possibly be the perfect week. Today I am going to clean my room and hang out here at the house until 4:00PM, thats when the fun begins. I'm going start it off with a bang; Homerun Derby ladies and gentlemen. I will not stop there. At 6:30PM on the very large dot, I will be engaging in a Picnic, at the well-known Mack Park. I will be doing this with Hannah C, Ian M, and Sarah K. These are the "fo' shos'". I plan on making grilled BBQ boneless chicken breasts. Yum-a-licious. Oh yeah. The rest of the week will be in further blog posts.

MY worries consist of deciding where to work. I need to decide this soon. I have two options: 1. Rosebud Mining 2. Dutch Run Coal. Eh, neither of them are the greatest of jobs. But hey, whatever. I'll decide here soon enough. I also am kind of nervous about the up and coming very sophmoric semester of school at IUP. I have to get as close to a 4.0 with my GPA so I can get into my Major. I need to work very hard, this is going to affect the quarters greatly, however, it will not erase the quarters, only make our times together more planned around mine and everyone elses school. On that note, peace all. Enjoy Yourself.

NDK

Live life the day that is given to you, for tomorrow is yet a day away, and yesterday's tomorrow is today---Ned Kimmel